Getting Better

Lately, not only have i had this lovely writer’s block, but i have been feeling very anti-social, and thus for the past few days i’ve been getting myself out of that mood. i think cooking did help, though.

i made that meatloaf the day after my last blog post. It came out tasting good, but it wasn’t so pretty…. i guess pretty comes with experience, right? i’ll post the recipe if anyone wants it, but it was a southwest meatloaf with lots of peppers and onions. Cutting the onions wasn’t much fun because i only knew how from the video game ‘Cooking Mama’ and though that got me through it fairly well, i wasn’t prepared for how slippery they are, so the diced onions were very oddly diced… Now i wanna play cooking mama….. That game actually taught me how vegetables are supposed to be chopped. At first, my mom was trying to walk me through it, and she was really surprised i knew how to do it. i thought it was because i watched her, but honestly i don’t think i ever did, and then i had this image in my mind of how the game would do it and i knew how to chop the veggies. Things aren’t as easy as Cooking Mama makes them look, but for the most part it was useful. Yesterday when my mom and sister were out shopping, i started prepping for corn chowder. The chopping was a lot easier than for the meatloaf and the diced onions looked a little more professional. i also got to chop leeks, which was interesting. i hadn’t ever had leeks, so it was fun to be able to taste them in the soup. Also, i couldn’t find the potato peeler, so i had to use the knife to slice the skin off instead. The recipe called for normal and sweet potatoes, which was interesting. Overall, it came out well. my mom said it tasted like something we would buy at the stone, but i’m not sure it’s that good. i guess i’m just not used to such a taste. i blame the leeks and all the other fresh ingredients. : P

So now i feel like i have my confirmation that i can only cook on hard mode, which is weird, but that’s ok. However, i did manage to make a brownie in a disposable coffee cup without burning it or the cup : P yay for me! i also have veggies that i manage to cook without burning, too. i’m especially fond of cauliflower, and have found that i’m not a big fan of whatever bean is in this mix. It tastes like beach sand. : (

i haven’t really been thinking about BDSM lately since i’ve been so anti-social i haven’t even really looked at fetlife much. i think i’m finally over it, though. The worst is over! : ) Going to go see my friend soon (was supposed to be yesterday or today, but she has been sick and not able to answer me) and we’re going to make cupcakes with a twist…. We’re baking them in ice cream cones! : ) i also have dinosaur sprinkles i’m bringing… i have this love for dinosaurs. Not sure why, but when i become a teacher, i think that’ll be the theme of my room: dinosaurs. : ) That works, since i’ll be a history teacher! So the plan is: ice cream cone cupcakes with icing and dinosaur sprinkles! : )

And while i hang with her, i don’t even have to worry about my financial aid anymore! i called them probably 5 times because they kept saying my address was invalid, but this time i got a definite ‘you were accepted and your award letter goes out on Friday.’ That’s a big worry off my shoulders, since i’m having trouble getting a job to pay for school, and i don’t think i should go over 15,000 dollars in debt for one semester, nor do i think i could get a loan that big. i’m really excited to get back to my dorm with my friends where things stay positive and i can go where i want when i want… Only thing i’ll miss is cooking, i’ve actually been enjoying cooking.

Anyhow, that’s what i’ve been up to : ) next time i write, it’ll be more fetish-y!


In The News

A woman in Utah who has two ovaries got pregnant twice and now has two babies due one week apart.

i actually heard about this before: a site lets you plug in a passage from your writing or that of an author and tells you who you write like. Apparently Stephanie Meyers writes like Stephen King, from what i’ve read from other sites.

Points for awesome: 17 year old amish boy who led police on a a horse and buggy chase.

Then a teacher who faked brain cancer to get time off of work. Is teaching really that bad?

Also, canned sandwiches now exist! : ) Yay!

New sea creatures have been discovered! : )


Livin’ the Gorean Life

When i first heard about BDSM and joined, a Dom came forward to be my mentor. i still talk to Him and His advice has been invaluable in my journey. One of the things He told me to do was to look up what ‘Gorean lifestyle’ is. He didn’t think it was what i wanted to be a part of, but i am very happy He told me to look it up, because i didn’t even know it existed, and while i’m not judging people who do anything the Gorean way, i did learn that it’s not my thing.

What is the Gorean lifestyle?

The Gorean lifestyle came from Gor science fiction novels written by John Norman. The Gor books had another type of planet (from what i understand, though the wiki says ‘fictional counter-earth’) and basically the lifestyle of the aliens on this planet was referred to as ‘Gorean.’ On this planet, it is perfectly fine to have a slave, and in fact, it’s perfectly fine to have a sexual relationship with your slave. This is compared to a M/s relationship. People who participate in the Gorean lifestyle are participating in the lifestyle of the race that lives on Gor. i’m going to focus on the BDSM part of the Gorean lifestyle, but i’d like to put out there that the wiki has some info on the non-sexual parts of it, owning a slave is not mandatory to be a part of this lifestyle. If you’re interested, you should click the link at the bottom of this post : )

The idea behind Gorean slaves and Gorean Masters is an extreme version of 24/7. These slaves live in high protocol that rarely, if ever, lets up. The lifestyle is largely dictated by the Gor books, meaning that punishments, positions, and rules are taken from the books, therefore, most Goreans are practicing identical or very similar versions of M/s. i can see how it would be nice to be on the same page with that large of a group of people. The only thing that i think wouldn’t be very much fun is that high protocol. i want to be able to joke around with my Dom in a largely free form relationship. Of course, i’m not rejecting all protocol. i would likely still follow direct orders and serve my Dom. i don’t think i would enjoy every little thing being as strict as i’m getting from reading these websites!!

What are some Gorean M/s customs?

There are basic rules that i found on several sites for slaves. Here they are:

1)  All Freepersons are to be addressed as either Master or Mistress.
2 ) Serve EVERY Master or Mistress as if your life, or your smooth flesh depends on it for it does. A lash is quick in the hand of a Free, so is a boot into the sleen pits…
3 ) While a Freeperson may not always be right, they are, by definition, never WRONG. Slaves always have the last word in any disagreement…the words “Yes Master”…
4 ) Jealousy and possessiveness have killed more slaves then disobedience, so has having an attitude…you’re a slave, a bondmaid, REMEMBER your place.
5 ) Slaves do not use the first person pronoun. There is not “I,” “me” or “mine” in a slaves vocabulary.
6 ) Learning to be pleasing and skilled slave/bondmaid is key. Learn to show excitement and to enjoy the freedoms that come with being enslaved. You are not robots or puppets. You are a collared slave, so enjoy and show as such.
7 ) Your collar carries the honor of your Owner. Your attitude can make it as light as a feather or as heavy as a mountain.
8 ) If there are none requiring service, use the time to clean, cook, bake and do the chores associated with day to day workings. Don’t be lazy.
9 ) Slaves possess nothing not given to them by their owner, including their name. What is given, can be taken away. If you are entrusted to carry a name for an owner, or silks, or jewelry, remember that these can be removed as easily as they were given.
10 ) The merest whim of your owner is your highest law. And lawbreakers are punished.

As i said, it was on several websites, so this is the general idea of the rules involved with being a Gorean slave. On top of this, there are slave positions ( that every slave is supposed to learn.

Punishments are also dictated by the books, and even names come from the books!

So, while this lifestyle isn’t for me, it’s very very strict, which i can totally understand someone wanting. If you’re interested, google it! : ) here are the sources i got my information from!

Rules for Gorean slaves, and some punishments are on here as well.

Gorean slave positions and descriptions of them

The wiki on the lifestyle in general, with a small shoutout to BDSM.

Moving on!!

Remember when i said i’d love to review sex toys?? An email i sent (yes, i did spell it right, but they did not!) was answered by a woman who works for a brand new program they’re working on. This program is geared toward bloggers, and it seems perfect for me!! This is super exciting for me and i’m really happy about it. i chose a toy to review on this blog, and i’ll have it either tomorrow or the day after. Yay!!! This means that i can add toy reviews to the blog, too!! Of course, i’m going to keep trying to keep this blog about BDSM, but i would like to expand it to sexuality, life, and relationships as well, because i think it would be a lot more interesting for you (the reader!) than sitting here reading what i have to say on the same topic every day. Plus, i’m going to run out of topics at some point, too!

Also, i’d like to put some links to interesting articles that went through my AOL news daily at the end of my blog. i think that it would be fun to share my links with my friends that aren’t on my messenger! : ) If you don’t like the links, feel free to complain here and this will be the last post that they’re on : ) sound good??

In the News

Apparently, the heir to the McDonald’s empire got robbed. The only question is, if he’s the heir, why is it that nobody who knows the McDonalds know him? Hmm…. (

You’ve probably heard about the  11 Russian spies who were arrested (some not too far from where i live!!) but do you really know anything about them? i found this interesting because they were such normal people. (

Also, Donald Duck got caught driving drunk. (

Kobayashi might not be going to the hot dog eating contest!! i would be quite disappointed if this actually happens. i’m just sayin’. (

Lastly, it looks like genetically engineered fish isn’t too far from being approved by the FDA, but is it actually as terrible as it seems? (

That’s all i have to say today, thanks for dealing with the super long post!


An interesting flash game

i was hopping around from thread to thread in fetlife when i saw a link to a game that the poster said had D/s in it. Normally, i have zero interest in flash games, that’s my little sister’s thing, but this piqued my curiosity.

You start out with just text on the screen asking if one is a man or a woman, with ominous music in the background, then there’s a little black blob-creature that you move through the world as. It’s a black and white game, by the way, assuming you follow the orders the person gives you. If you don’t, you get the bad ending, and throughout the course of the game it just gets harder and harder to play, with colored blocks making the obstacles pretty much invisible to me. The good ending makes the world an easy place to move through, and it actually makes it an easier game to play.

What i found interesting about this game, and why i’m writing about it, is what emotions it brought out of me. The first time i played through, i was very confused, and ended up fudging up one of my orders, just to see what the computer would do. Then i felt bad, when it responded to what i did. Consequently, a few colored blocks appeared here and there, but it wasn’t particularly bad and i could get through it relatively easily. At the end, i was very happy to ‘meet’ this Master.

The second run, i purposefully did everything wrong, and the entire time i felt bad for the computer. At the end, the bad ending made me very very sad, and i was happy that i hadn’t left getting the bad ending for last, because i got to get the perfect ending last, to feel better. Getting the bad ending was very tough, though! The game gets uglier the more you disobey, so the entire thing was covered in colored boxes, shuffling through bright colors and distracting me, and i could barely figure out what was a trap and what wasn’t, because the traps were bright red boxes, and i was having bright box overload.

When i went through for the perfect ending, the game got easier and easier as i followed more and more instructions, and i won praise. At the end, i got to ‘meet’ the computer, and i’ll let you figure out for yourself what it’s like.

Overall, i really really loved this game. It definitely had D/s aspects in it, and i definitely wanted to ‘please’ the computer, even though i knew that it was a computer. It was very odd. Here’s the link, try it out!